October 3, 2010

New Beginnings

It seems that the Lord has been speaking 'New Beginnings' to me. It's what I need, it's what I want and desire. I want to be new, start new, be fresh, washed clean, become a new man. I want to find my first love in Christ.

1 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the  new has come! NIV

This evening at our church the pastor spoke about 'New Beginnings'. I love this kind of confirmation from the Father.

New Beginnings.

A chance to start fresh and anew. An opportunity to change old behaviors. Washed clean, white as snow, forgiven. It's a divine place to be. Such a precious gift that the Lord has given us. Sending His Son to die for our sin. A man who knew no sin, that we might become His righteousness. Oh how He loves us. If we could ever comprehend how much He loves.

For some reason, no matter how many times I'm reminded that it's not about us, it's about Him.... I seem to forget. I forget that *I* don't need to know everything, that I don't have to be good at speaking in order for the Lord to use me to speak. If I could truly grasp, comprehend this in my mind and my heart I would be seeking HIM so much more.

In my mind I always have these great ideas of what I want to do for the Lord. I can vision, dream and create such wonderous things, but in all my planning I forget that maybe-just maybe-this isn't His call for my life. It's not about what I want to do for Him, it's about His plan for me. Do I really want to know His plan for me? Is it what I want? Is it what I want to do? Where I want to go?

I was reminded today that Moses wasn't a great speaker and that he doubted his ability to do what the Lord asked him to do. He questioned the Lord over and over again, trying so desperately to get the Lord to see that he wasn't capable of fulfilling the call that the Lord had placed over his life. In the end Moses chose to obey. In spite of his fear, in spite of his doubt, in spite of his reluctance, and in spite of the fact that he wasn't looking forward to, nor did he really want to do what the Lord had asked, he obeyed anyway. His obedience was vital because had he allowed the fear and doubt in himself to stop him he would not have fulfilled the call that God had for his life. It's not about Moses' ability, it's about God's.

Occasionally I look at people and I think there is no way that they are ever going to change or be any different then they are. There are times that I pray without believing it will actually be answered. I look at people and situations and often times my life with a look of hopelessness.

Think about that. 


Definitions for hopelessness are: providing no hope; desperate; despairing, impossible to accomplish; not able to learn or perform; inadequate for the purpose. 

For example, I will look at the person-the alcoholic that has been that way for 40 years and think they are never going to quit and live for God. Yet I pray for them. I look at the situation rather than to my Father and His word. I have the habit of fearing that things will never change, believing that God that won't answer. I don't do it on purpose, it sort of just comes naturally. It's a habit, a bad habit that happens without my even thinking about it. 

What a lie from satan!

Satan doesn't have to possess you all he has to do is to get you to believe the lie. If he can do that, he's won that battle.

I am so tired of this habit! I want to remember that my God can do ANYTHING! It isn't about US it's about GOD! It's not what we want to do, it's what He wants us to do! It's not about what we can do, it's about what He can do through us. If we learn to trust His word, know His greatness, believe in His power and remember His love for us and take our focus off of ourselves, the people, and the world-THEN- we could LIVE what we BELIEVE. If we can see through the physical realm and see into the spiritual realm remembering that we do not war against flesh and blood but against principalities, the rulers of darkness in this world then we could allow our faith to come alive.

Imagine that. FAITH. Real faith, feeling it, experiencing it, living it. Through and in spite of everything. Being content with what we have and where we are knowing we are in HIS will and fulfilling the call He has on our lives.

If God could use regular people like Moses and change men like Paul, then just imagine what He will do with you and me when we hear and obey.

New Beginnings.

I'm so thankful for New Beginnings.


Susan said...

There is no such things as hopelessness when you truly know God and His WORD. Even in our current situation we are not hopeless but HOPE-FILLED.

~ Krystal said...

God has given me a new beginning and I love it. I was filled with nothing but hopelessness. I, at one point, was beginning to wonder about if God even existed, but then I reached out to a great christian friend of mine. Just this past Sunday I attended a Sunday morning service, which I hadn't done in over a year (I had visited a couple of churches during their revival's, but that's as far as it went) and felt something that I hadn't felt in years. I felt a peace sweep over me and it was then that I knew that He was real and that He always had been. I was just too ignorant and stubborn to realize it earlier. I've been in a good mood ever since and have physically felt AWESOME (which hasn't happened lately, due to many health problems). Yay!

It took me hitting rock bottom and feeling a lack of hope, before I could reach back up. But hey...Now that I am here...IT ROCKS! :P