Well I worked on another blog entry today and published it but it isn't showing up on my page. I'm confused as to what exactly is going on with it. It isn't a draft, it specifically says its published but where it is I just don't know.
Heaven is leaving Monday. I know all the things I'm suppose to know but still yet I'm struggling with her leaving. She has grown up so fast and life it feels as though its just passing me by at times. I look into the mirror each day and I see this old body aging and yet inside I still feel like this little girl. Some days I'm screaming to get out and for time to just stop and stand still for a little while and give me some time to catch up with myself but it never happens. I'm highly emotional, tears just come whenever they choose whether I want them to or not. I feel quite silly at times since I know my Father, His comfort and His word and yet I feel as though I'm out here in the middle of no where with no control. And maybe that is what is wrong, no control. And yet I wouldn't even know what that was like because I've never had control, He has always had control. That should bring me peace though. Nothing is making sense to me. I sleep but I don't rest. I eat but I don't get full. I'm ok and yet I don't feel ok. So I look around and check, and sure enough I'm fine. How can I feel so many things at once? How can I be so happy and so proud of my daughter, so thankful that she is listening to God and fulfilling her purpose and yet feel so lost? This flesh is heavy at times.
I'll post more about her trip and link some information on it as it becomes available.
Now That’s Love by Ree - I shared this on Instagram the other day but wanted to be sure to share it here too. Marlboro Man and I have been on a trip this week, and as we were drivi...
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