Psalm 143:7-8 – Answer me quickly, O Lord; my spirit fails. Do not hide your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the pit. Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I’ll lift up my soul.
This month has drug by so slowly. I have been so down. Real down.
This last week I've been depressed, so sad, weak, and helpless.
I study, I read, do quizzes, case studies, NCLEX practice questions, but it seems as though none of it matters.
I hate feeling this way. Like I'm failing, drowning and there is nothing I can do to save me.
I've been thinking a lot lately. I mean reality has to hit sooner or later right? If I can't pass these tests then I'm going to fail out of school.
That thought hurts. It's also embarrassing.
I battle. Do I quit? Do I drop out? Can I pull my averages up? Am I wasting my time?
I promised myself one thing from the beginning, and that was, that I would not quit.
No matter what.
I would not quit.
I never knew it would be this hard.
This week has been a very emotional week. I've struggled. Really struggled.
Today, I don't have any answers. I have no inspiration.
But I know the One who does. He hasn't shared them with me yet but He will. Until then, I'll lean on Him, and trust in Him, because I know He is holding me, protecting me, and leading my foot steps.
I don't know what my future holds but I praise the Lord that He holds my future.