Sometimes it's hard for a person to be real. I use to try to be so perfect in the eyes of the world, believing that I had to fit in or be as good as those around me. I thought the path to God was earning my way, I thought the way to growth was what our ministry became. How wrong I was. My husband and I have been through some very rough waters in churches over the years. We were hurt so deeply and I can remember asking God over and over, "Why, Lord?" "Why, when we were trying to hard to serve You."
Now, after several years, I can hear the answer of the Lord clear as a bell. "You are searching for Me on the wrong path and in the wrong places. I've led you down this rutted road so that you would discover the way to Me."
God is a God of mercy and grace. I will never deserve His love and forgiveness and yet it is there. It is mine for the receiving. I heard a saying just last week that really struck my heart deeply. It said, "You only receive as much love as you think you deserve." How true this is. We often spend so much time thinking how undeserving we are, stopping ourselves from receiving fully from the Lord.
I've found my Father, He's been there all along. I do not live to impress anyone, I live to obey His word and His call on my life. I set aside all fear of what I myself cannot do and I choose to be more than satisfied with what the Lord calls me to do and prepares me to follow through with. I am far from perfection, but as long as I obey His voice I know that I live in His will.
Things have changed. No longer do we seek to follow man or religion, laws or to be accepted. Doors are opening and our ministry is taking off in ways we never could have foreseen. The Lord knew all along the direction we would take. He was leading us and guiding us all along. He was teaching us to follow Him. To hear His voice.
I have no question for Him. Only the desire to be used by Him to bless others and see souls set free from the bondage of the enemy.
I live behind no pretenses, there is no mask that I hide behind, no hidden secrets, everything I've ever done, lived or been, the Lord Jesus has delivered me from and I gladly share and use that so that others know they are not alone and that there is hope in our Father. The One who breaks chains and sets the captive free. I am so thankful to not only know Him but for the opportunity to live for Him. I have no unforgiveness in my heart any longer. I am full to the brim with His peace and ever lasting love.
If you are reading this, know that I love you. I am praying for you. I pray the Lord reach deep down inside of your heart and bring you back to Him. I pray He enable you to forgive yourself, as I have had to forgive myself for my own mistakes. I pray that He speak and you hear Him daily, today and in every day to come.
If we are living a life outside of the will of God, living in willing sin, advertising that sin does not make that lifestyle okay with the Lord. Trying to prove that someone else is wrong does not in turn justify or make you right. That isn't living without a mask. That is just using sin as a mask and being proud of it. To live free beyond the mask is to say, "The Lord Jesus has delivered me from gossip, from alcohol, from depression, from oppression, from having to compete with you, from sexual bondages, from jealousy and discontentment! The Lord Jesus has set me free! And not only has He set me free, that I might use my testimony to help others, He has also restored and redeemed!" -And to live a life that shows it. Yes, I will make mistakes but here I am, uncovered and bare. Watch me because my testimony is being lived and it shows. I'm not just being heard, but know that I do have a voice and I will use all I have for His glory!
He that believes on me, as the scripture has said, out of his heart shall flow rivers of living water. John 7:38 KJV
For there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; neither hid, that shall not be known. Luke 12:2 KJV
If the Son therefore shall make you free, you shall be free indeed. John 8:36
I AM FREE INDEED! IN JESUS CHRIST NAME I AM FREE INDEED! PRAISE GOD ALMIGHTY I AM FREE INDEED!
DO YOU WANT FREEDOM? CALL ON THE NAME OF THE LORD!